It took me forty-two years to realize something that now seems so clear: I am a writer. And I have always been a writer. I've been writing since I was a child, but for some reason I never really saw what was right in front of me. I kept thinking about my stories in the wrong way, as if they needed to become some other kind of “final product”. It took me a long time to understand that the place my stories truly belong is on the page — just text, simple and complete.

It feels a little strange to admit, but during the last year I finally realized that writing is the one medium where I can bring my stories to life with total freedom and no outside limitations. I’ve always wanted full control over even the smallest details, and somehow I never understood that a blank page was exactly the thing I was looking for.

For many years I wrote stories with the idea that one day they would be filmed and shown as moving images. My texts were never in correct screenplay format or technically structured, but they leaned heavily on the visual scenes playing in my head rather than on the actual words on paper.

With my stories, I was afraid that if someone else touched my world, they wouldn’t understand it and might change it in ways I didn’t agree with. They might choose the wrong camera angles, the wrong lighting, or cast people who looked nothing like the characters in my mind. But the most terrifying thought was that they simply wouldn’t understand how the world I had created was supposed to feel.

Today I know something simple: I can control all of it if I just write it down. If it’s written down, it is.

Looking at it more closely, I think I always wrote “movies” because of how I experience the act of writing. When I write, I don’t just imagine events — I see them unfold like a film inside my head. The story plays in my head like Reservoir Dogs or O Brother, Where Art Thou. I see camera angles. I see how the scene is lit. I see shots cut together, and I see every small detail of the set where my characters live and suffer. And I act too — my face reflects the emotions of my protagonist even though I’m just sitting in front of my screen, in a different world entirely.

This is probably the reason behind my very descriptive writing style. My text is full of words chosen to build the world around the story. I always want to leave space for the reader’s imagination, of course, but if there’s something I feel needs to be written, it will be there. I love writing this way, and I hope someone will love reading it.

There are so many rough and more polished stories in my head and in my drawer that I’m excited about, and I can’t wait to jump into those worlds. And while it may sound a bit silly, I’ve finally found a home where I can tell those stories exactly as I want, without any limits.

And while I sometimes wish I had realized this years ago, I now know that my life experiences will give my stories a depth my younger self could never have achieved at the turn of the millennium. Today, I can make my stories better than ever.

So here I am, about to publish my first short story just the way I want it.

Welcome to follow my new journey as a writer.